lizziebeeandlilybee:

i started smoking again. i smoked for 4 years and quit right after i got pregnant. i never craved them cause i knew i couldnt do it while i was pregnant. but ever since i had lily its been so hard to not start again. and i gave in today :/

You aren’t a bad mum at all! You gave up whilst you were pregnant which is a lot more than some people can say. I’m worried I’m going to do the same, as I stopped smoking when I found out I was pregnant too. It’s so stressful though! So don’t feel bad :) you’re doing great :)

I know everyones different, but I really want her here now! My back and feet are constantly in pain. I’ve been trying to stay active and going on walks with my dog. I’m taking the raspberry tea leaf capsules. Eating pineapple like it’s going out of fashion. Bouncing around on my big ball thing everyday.

Also sperm donor hasn’t got in touch since he stood be up again over a week ago. And I just know he’s going to hear about her being born, and trying to come visit. And making a big fuss about the fact I’m registering her without him, and didn’t tell him I was in labour. 

I don’t want him involved. He hasn’t acted like he wants to be involved at all. I’m going to be seen as the bad guy in all this. But he’s had every opportunity to be involved. He’s not going to be consistent with visiting at all, and he can’t be trusted.  

4 days til my due date!!

WOOO BABY COME OUT NOW :)

I’m so jealous of everyone having their babies!! They are all so gorgeous!! I want her hear now!! :)